So, in a little less than three days, I'll be a mommy for the second time. I'll finally have my little princess! I'm sooo excited. But, with excitement, I have so many other emotions. I'm definitely scared. Not just for the surgery, but knowing that I have to find a way to split my attention between both of my babies and do my best to make them both happy. I don't want to favor one over the other, or pay more attention to one, although I know Mally will need a little more attention in the beginning. I'm scared that I won't love her as much as Andrew, although I'm pretty sure that won't be an issue. I'm happy because I've wanted a girl so bad, and I'll have her now. I'm happy because my little family will be complete. I'm happy because I'll have another little angel to cuddle and play with and take care of. Andrew is so excited to be a big brother, he loves to lay on my belly and kiss her and talk to her and feel her move. Hopefully he's still excited once she's actually here! :P
Ya know, I never thought I would get married or be a mommy so young. Sometimes I wish I would have waited, but then I look at Andrew and I know it's all worth it. He can be a little monster sometimes but he knows exactly how to make me smile and forget whatever bad thing he's just done. I love watching him grow and develop and I can't wait to do the same with Maleyna. It's hard, I won't lie. Once you have kids most of your friends sort of disappear, probably because they know you can't just go out and do whatever you want. I've been able to make an amazing new friend, Tara. She's the same age as I am and her daughter is 9 months old, so she goes through the same things I do. Plus, my husband and her boyfriend are bi-polar, so we relate in that way. I've been spending a lot of time with her and we've gotten reeeally close and I'm very thankful for that. And I met another friend through her, Sacrena, who is equally as awesome. It's nice having friends that understand. Plus it's adorable to watch Andrew play with little Brianna, he loves her to death! But I miss all my old friends a lot, like Felicia and Angell and Angela and my whole Parkville crowd. But, I guess people get older and move on and I'm at least thankful I still get to talk to them even if I don't see them as much as I'd like!
Anyhow, much needs to be done to get ready for the baby and it won't happen if I'm on here. <3
First post.
So, I figured I'd make this blog to keep people (that want to read, anyway) up to date with Andrew and soon, Maleyna! They grow so fast so it's hard for me to tell everyone what new things they're up to and whatever. As of now, Andrew is doing really well. It seems like when he turned 3, his whole demeanor changed. He's much nicer and it seems like he's actually a lot smarter, too. And very excited about his little sister! She'll be here on Jan 29th, if not sooner. I've been having a lot more Braxton Hicks contractions and I can feel her lowering. I want her here, but I also hope she can hold out until Friday when everybody took off of work. A lot of people think I should have tried to go natural but, I have my reasons for wanting a scheduled c-section. Either way, the only thing that really matters is that she's healthy. I can't wait to meet her!
